Letting the Son Shine

Summertime.

Quite possibly the best ten letter word known to man.
This summer in particular is a very special one to me. I'm going through a huge life and heart change. The sun signifies to me that although darkness and rainfall take coverage of the place I live that the light will always prevail.

Ending my first semester at the school of my dreams leaves me with mixed emotions. I never had to deal with the amount of stress and childlike drama in high school like I have during these last four months. I've let boys, friends, dramatics, and distraction take my focus off of the two reasons I came to Northwest which were God and my education.

I could feel myself being so unmotivated for anything prosperous in my life. I've just sort of  

been.

Don't get me wrong, I've had tons of fun. I've met some friends I hope to keep the rest of my life. Not all of this experience has been discouraging, which I feel blessed for. If God has taught me one thing through all of this is that I really do need to make Him the center for my life and decisions. I'm taken back to when I was in Australia and while everything around me was falling apart, the fact that I was right with Jesus and focused fully on Him, nothing could touch me. No amount of rain could ruin my parade. He was all that I needed and I was  overwhelmed with happiness.

While I will enjoy my summer to its absolute fullest and make some incredible memories, it means something different this year. It's a time where I will let my sun be the Son and will let my words be the Word. I need to make some radical changes. I'm done being complacent with how my life is. Today is the day the Lord has made and I plan on rejoicing and being glad in it. I will no longer worry what others think. I will no longer be okay with less than God has for me. I refuse to not live to my full potential and put everything I have into the plans set forth for me.

In a way I feel reborn. I've already been reborn through Christ, but this is something different. I've been given a new heart and mind. My soul is already brand new through the love and blood of my Savior, but now it's up to me to let that love and knowledge flow to other vital parts of my life. I pray for the wisdom and understanding to help my brain guide me to decisions that are smart and productive. I pray that my heart can harness love and grace like never before. I already have the teacher, I just need to stop and listen to Him.

The answers aren't in the back of the book this time. I need to stop looking for the quick fix, the cheat sheet, or wait for others to give me the answers. I need to step back and pause. Open up the Word of God. Be enveloped into a world that isn't my own. I need to realize that the answers to life will not be force fed to me, doors won't just open, life doesn't work that way. Desiring a relationship, a true, meaningful, loving relationship with my Creator is all I need. Knowing Him is knowing the world. I know that He has not forgotten me, so how could I let myself forget Him. He has all the answers because he is the answer.

God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him.